I'm giving it to You

I suppose when I write how I feel, make the burden lighter. When I can't seem to find the peace I had a week ago or even an hour ago.
Writing what and how I feel keeps me sane, because that is how God deals with me. That Is how can I can express myself through words spoken by God.
Time after time I ask God to remove any sort of burden, but it never works. There are even times that I feel so lost, forgetting the same who carried me through last year, did it again this year. He even carried me through the night by allowing me to rest so I can be fresh to complete today's assignments, but that is what I forget about this powerful God.
Instead of just trusting God, I complain to Him, I tell Him to remove this cup from me.
Then He reminds me of Jesus who asked Him to remove this cup (Luke 22:41-42). Then I'm reminded that Jesus also said "But do what You want and not what I want."
"Easy for Him to say, He is the Son of God" I'm thinking to myself. I'm only human. I'm so weak. Look at how I'm complaining for every thing that comes my way.
God is saying, "Let SELF die and let Me be the take care of what's bothering you."
I'm sitting here today thinking, so many of my friends lost a husband. So many of my friends lost a child, so many miscarried, so many have no home, no food, no family to call their own, and I complain. Yes, it's not nice to go though pain. When all you want is peace in your life. I then once again realise, that PEACE is the magic word.
I will never have peace if I want to solve the problems by making my own plans. I cannot move forward when I'm the one who cannot lay that burden down, at the feet of the Cross. I cannot tell others of the goodness of God when I choose to forget what great things He has done for me yesterday or any other day.
I will stay where I am if I focus and complain about things that's not even my problem.
The Spirit of God wants me to do all things without complaining so that I can be blameless in this perverse and wicked world.
I am well aware there will always be challenges. I am well aware that my faith will always be tested, but I choose to ask God, "Lord, what can I lesson learn from this challenge I'm facing today?"
I choose to say, "Father, if you will, please don't make suffer by having me drink from this cup. But do what you want, and not what I want." Luke 22:41-42
Let us be strong and know that the peace God gives, is far greater than what the world gives.
"I Am She"
Leslene
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Never Forgotten...Always Loved

Many things we face try to rob us of the sense of God's peace and presence in our lives. Pressures, hectic schedules and disappointments are some of the enemies that war against us.
In the midst of life's stress we need to be reminded of the heart and mind of God towards us. he assures us that we are never out of His thoughts and always close to His heart. 
There is never a time when He is indifferent to our pain or unresponsive to our needs. His arms are always open...His ear is always listening...His eyes is always watching...His heart is always loving.

The need for us to 'encourage one another" is the aim of my writing and what you will read when the book is done. That you will always remember, each one of us have a story to tell and some write about it. 
I have been around the same mountain many times, until I decided "it stops right here and right now". God has beautiful thoughts towards us and when we go through the fire think of what David says:

"How precious are Your thoughts that are far beyond my understanding. I try to count Your thoughts, but they outnumber the grains of sand on the beach. And when I awake, I will find You nearby."

 Psalm 139:17-18

Wherever we find ourselves at, God is and will always be near. He is so faithful. He will do what He says in His word. Please spend as much time in the word of God in order for you to over come any obstacle, any situation and to discover peace. I have heard of and seen many people go through difficult times, but they have over come. They are victorious.

I AM SHE!!!  I AM VICTORIOUS!

The [Lord] Is Always Near

You have looked deep into my heart, [Lord], and you know all about me.
You know when I am resting
or when I am working, and from heaven you discover my thoughts.
You notice everything I do and everywhere I go.
Before I even speak a word, you know what I will say,
and with your powerful arm you protect me from every side.
I can't understand all of this!
Such wonderful knowledge is far above me.
Where could I go to escape from your Spirit or from your sight?
If I were to climb up to the highest heavens, you would be there. If I were to dig down to the world of the dead you would also be there.
Suppose I had wings like the dawning day and flew across the ocean.
Even then your powerful arm
would guide and protect me.
Or suppose I said, "I'll hide in the dark until night comes to cover me over."
But you see in the dark because daylight and dark are all the same to you.
You are the one who put me together inside my mother's body,
and I praise you because of
the wonderful way you created me. Everything you do is marvelous! Of this I have no doubt.  Nothing about me is hidden from you! I was secretly woven together out of human sight,
but with your own eyes you saw my body being formed. Even before I was born, you had written in your book everything about me.
Your thoughts are far beyond my understanding, much more than I could ever imagine.
I try to count your thoughts,
but they outnumber the grains of sand on the beach. And when I awake, I will find you nearby.
How I wish that you would kill
all cruel and heartless people and protect me from them!
They are always rebelling and speaking evil of you.
You know I hate anyone who hates you, [Lord], and refuses to obey.
They are my enemies too, and I truly hate them.
Look deep into my heart, God,
and find out everything I am thinking.
Don't let me follow evil ways,
but lead me in the way that time has proven true.
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