It Gets So Much Easier

Growing up I haven't had the easiest life. Although my brother and sister would totally disagree with me regarding that statement. (**,). I would also say that they didn't have it easy although it seemed like they did.
My father was almost never at home(seaman), and my mom would always make a way for us to have food and a roof over our heads.
I never understood why things were the way they were, but I always knew things would get better some day.
I never for one minute thought that my mom was depending on God to make a way where all things seemed so impossible. We would always move around from one room in a house filled with people or to a house we could never really call our own. As a child I couldn't understand why my mom was so humble and In a way I saw her being the tail in various situations, but yet she stayed humble.
Today I'm a married woman with my own children and often I reflect on those days. I thank God for my childhood days. It made me so strong. I figured out who the person is who made my mom so strong. I figured out who the person is who taught my mom humility. I figured out who kept my alive when my mom went to work and I had to wait for her on a pavement. Today, I know that Jesus was the one my mom trusted with everything she had. She trusted Jesus with her life.
There are days I feel exactly how my mom felt when she had to do things that seemed impossible. Today I know Jesus and I can freely give all anxiety, burdens and that unworthy feeling to Him. He doesn't moan when I do and He even thanks me for doing so.
I have come to know Him. I have come to know myself because of Him, and I have come to know what He's passionate about. I want to know Him more every day and as I do, I love myself even more. It actually makes it easier to love those who curse, hate, judge and hurt themselves.
Love covers a multitude of sins.
In His Love
Leslene
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Loneliness....

We all love to have friends. We all love hanging out and just enjoying ourselves, and that just sound and seems all good. But is it really all good?
From a very young age we learn about people automatically we find out, that is what we need in our lives. as you grow older it becomes more evident that you rely on those people to make you feel good not intentionally off course. This then becomes your weekend routine, or for some a daily one.
Do you think this is good for you?
You even begin to feel lonely when they not around. You feel empty because they bring purpose to your life. What about you? Do you bring purpose to your own life? How can you when you depend on others to do that for you? in your teen years, this happened and it's brought into your home your marriage and your children do the same thing.
Have you forgotten what you love to do or, have you ever tried to find out?
Do it today! Sit still for a few minutes and think to yourself. "WHAT DO I LIKE?" You'll be totally amazed. The moment that is established, you won't feel that loneliness anymore. There's one quote that is so dear to my heart. It helped me in so many ways. I hope it will shed some light of how you need to master this loneliness and truly find God's purpose for your life. "PURPOSE", what an amazing gift.
"Loneliness is not the absence of people in your life. Loneliness is the absence of purpose. Once you have purpose, the right people will follow.
People will rule and disrespect you when you come as the tail.
People will respect and imitate you when you come and establish your dominion gifted to you by Christ.
People will find their purpose through you when you are genuine and honest about who Christ says you are.
In His Love
Leslene

This Season

It might not be seen yet or feel like it when you step out of your home, but it's definitely evident in the heart. I feel the change. I see the change of this new season in me and through me. I am so excited because God makes all things new.
Do you want to feel that awesome new change in your life? Are you tired of experiencing the same season year in and year out? Well, why don't you try what God is saying. It's so amazing. I am already excited for you. Follow the instructions below, be consistent, be committed and watch what God will accomplish in your life. It's Spring, a new season and I want you to feel it and see. Be excited and celebrate while following what God is saying.
"Anyone who intends to come with Me has to let Me lead. You're not in the driver's seat; I am. Don't run from suffering; embrace it. Follow Me and I'll show you how. Self-help is no help at all. Self-sacrifice is the way, My way, to saving yourself your true self. What good would it do to get everything you want and lose you, the real you! What would you ever trade your soul for? - Mark 8:34
Wow! Instructions for life. We can and will never go wrong when we choose to follow His word.
This is a season for your soul to prosper and it will be seen externally.
In His Love
Leslene
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Restored and "Remembered by God"

In 2012 I wrote about a friend of mine having her second miscarriage in less than a year. What a sad moment. A moment no one understood and I guess some of us still don't and never will. I don't think I ever will. I've never been in that situation, but what I do know is that God made me feel something so intimate during that time, my friend and her family was grieving, I begged God to take the pain away.
There was a moment during all their pain, as if more that just a miscarriage was taking place. It was a time we all felt that the family was so torn apart, so divided, so unhealthy and so allowed by God. You almost wanted to blame God, but a mother and a father who felt the loss more than I did, more than you did, more than the people who knows them so intimately. The two of them decided to trust God more then ever. They refused to allow the enemy to use their grieve against them. This evening while watching them from a distance, I saw not a broken family, I saw not a perfect family, but what I saw was... A scripture on the wall... I saw Joel 2:23-25
"Be glad then, you children of Zion...For He has given you the former rain faithfully...So I will restore to you the years..." What an amazing scripture coming to life within me once again. Today three years later I saw a gift remembered by God given to a once broken family... "Restored and remembered by God."
A new baby boy. I couldn't hold him and I almost felt jealous when my husband and daughter could go near him. I wanted to push them out of the way because I was yearning inside to hold a child, a promise that God never forgot about, but I couldn't hold him, at least not yet. Soon baby soon... (**,) I saw the joy and I definitely felt the joy. There was so much boasting, not of arrogance but of what God has done. He is exalted through all of this. I am reminded of what Cindy Trimm wrote; "Remember, where there are no obstacles, there are no triumphs, and there is no story to tell."
This family has an amazing story to tell and believe me, at the right time and season, the world will hear and believe in the Almighty Christ Jesus.
Three years later I am saying, "Glory to God, who is able, through His mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more then we might ask or think." Ephesians 3:20
Go to the link below and read part 1 of this amazing story.

http://clayoungadults.blogspot.co.uk/2012/09/she-is-pillar.html?m=1
In His Love
Leslene
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Day 3 - He Is On Line (My Shepherd)

This morning when I got to work, everything was offline. No one could clock in, no one could send out e-mails. The server along with everything else was off. Now I prepare myself for lots of phone calls from the different areas in the building. Just as I predicted, the calls started coming through, asking me what the problem is. I located the IT guys and while they trying to resolve the problem, I sent out an e-mail saying, they are busy resolving the problem. Now, I have a choice to be irritated by all the calls coming through, I can answer everyone's "WHY" and be irritated even more and send the e-mail to all users explaining myself only ones even though everyone doesn't have a pc or making use of the server.

Then I started looking at this whole scenario,  and should I have a problem in my personal life, I don't have to call people to sort it out. I have a God. He is the best problem solver. He is NEVER offline. He is ALWAYS available. I can COUNT on Him to NEVER let me down. You know what the problem is, why people don't go right away to God? They want to see a physical person standing in front of them. They walk by sight and not by faith. If God has sorted something out for you once, He can and will do it again.

I declare today:

The Lord is my Shepherd and I shall not want. He makes me to lie down in green pastures. HE leads me to still waters. He restores my soul......When I walk through the valley of shadow of death, I will fear, NO evil.

In His Love

Leslene

Day 2 - Endless Praise "Psalm 46:10"

How amazing is the moment you see the crash coming and God leads you to His word. The word you don't really want to read and meditate on. – But when you do meditate, you get that warm feeling inside you and every detail of God's word is revealed. "Revelation upon revelation."

How can I not feel like praising God. How can i not feel like going on. How can I allow my emotions to take over my whole day and the day has so many hours still left. Your own thoughts rages at you. You feel the responsibility of so many things just come caging in like a wall falling on you and covering you- BUT at the voice of God the earth itself melts. The Lord All-Powerful is with me. (v.7)

God brings wars to an end. That war inside you. This is the reason you have a need to fast. For this reason you have to hold on. So many who does not know Christ has placed their trust in you. Your children look up to you for that extra boost, and even your husband comes to a point where he sees that x-factor in you.

The only thing you can do is take God on His word – remind Him of it and wait. Your strength will be renewed. You will not faint nor grow weary, "Why?" – the word of God is your strength.

You have no choice but to "Calm down,  and learn that He is God"(Psalm 46:10), give Him that endless praise he so much desires.

In His Love
Leslene

Day 1 - Remember?

Wow! How weird is this? Today, on this day one, you see this picture staring you right in your face reminding you of what someone did to you some time back. You tried so hard to forget about the incident and eventually manages to give it to God, and here you're reminded again.

What does this tell me? FASTING has never been and will never be easy especially when you're determined to see change.

I may have over reacted a bit when the reminder came, but that doesn't mean I should stop fasting. Repent and move along, being vigilant and mindful of the purpose. I believe through this morning's experience, God wants to teach me. He wants to show me what's gone should be forgotten at the cross, because that's where I laid it. "Let Me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls" (Matt. 11:29 NLT).

God is gentle and I should be too. Be mindful of how I felt during that situation and had I  not decided to walk away, where would I find myself today?

If this is day one for you as well, or it might even be day 21, stay focused. Breakthrough is here. Forget about the past, God is doing a new thing while you're fasting and it will be revealed throughout this journey.

 In His Love
Leslene

It Can Be Overcome

" Burdened?" Absolutely

"Heaviness?" Definitely

These are the two words and feelings I can relate to some days but mostly at night. It's not issues and trials I'm battling with but those of others and I feel it weighing me down. God has called us to serve and in turn He serves us if we allow Him to.
Now, that is one invitation I will never refuse. I know what it is to carry burdens for days, months and years on end. I laid it at the cross, even the ones to come in Jesus name. – But there are people who doesn't  know how to lay it down. There are people who knows about Jesus, but all they can think of is, there's a God who punish people if they tell Him about their problems.
I believe that is where we come in. God wants us to serve others and teach them about this wonderful God who is really eager to listen to us. He wants to love on us and not want us to be afraid.
At the moment I feel burdened, heavy and cast down. I listen to people. They open up to me and in the process, trusts me with their issues. That is such a huge responsibility. When someone puts their trust in you, you are so cautious because of past mistakes and you feel that the enemy is testing you. – but today I am certain this is not the enemy, this is God wanting me to see that I can do it. This is God showing me that I can be trusted and the past is long gone.
God wants to free me of other people's burdens and He tells me it can and will only be overcome by prayer and fasting. God is yet again reminding me, it is not about me. It is not about what I want. I have a need to yet again take those burdens to Him by earnestly praying and fasting for those who trust me. He will turn it around for them. They will begin to see who the Burden Lifter is.
I am determined to hear you've had breakthrough. I am determined to see you walking and living life lighter. I am determined to let go of all burdens, give it to God by prayer and fasting, until I see  and experience breakthrough in all areas in my life. This is a birthing process, waiting to be delivered full term, by prayer and fasting that pleases God.
It is not about me. It's about the one who seeks change so desperately. Because they seek, they will find in Jesus name. "Is this not the fast that I have chosen: To loose the bonds of wickedness, to undo the heavy burdens, To let the oppressed go free, And that you break every yoke? Is it not to share your bread with the hungry, and that you bring to your house the poor who are cast out;...." Isaiah 58...

In His LovE
Leslene

Where and how to stand

I must admit, it's really hard sometimes to stand your ground, but it is possible. There are time you've been through so much that- you see yourself praying, asking God for help, but it's impossible to put it into action. You feel defeated. You feel hated by God even though you know it's not true. This is what This is what happens when you are not grounded in God's word. You can easily be tripped if you don't make time for the word of God.

The word of God is truly a lamp unto our feet and light on our path. It makes issue so much lighter, it even takes it away when we wholeheartedly trust the Light. We don't have to be in darkness. We don't have to wonder, "where to from here?" We can be sure that whatever comes our way, we are assured that our Saviour to save us. God wants to help us prosper in every area of our lives, but it cannot happen if we are still stuck on the old patterns that brings us back to where we started. We have to let go of old patterns and replace it with God's word. "Stand your ground. . . . Stay alert and be persistent in your prayers."

—Ephesians 6:14, 18, nlt

In His Love

Leslene

They Depend On You

I've been temping at this company for three months now and the amount of trust place on me is so overwhelming. I feel sad to think there are so many people just looking for someone to talk to. They just looking for someone to listen and to occasionally give some sound Godly advice.

I signed a four month contract and I pray that I will not leave this place full. I want to leave empty. I want to give all that I am, all that I have been given by God and just pour it out in this place.

We were not created to live life on our own or for ourselves. Yes, we do need some time to tend to ourselves in order for us to be healthy and whole.

WE CANNOT GIVE OF OURSELVES TO A BROKEN WORLD WHEN WE ARE STRUGGLING WITH BROKENESS OURSELVES.

 After hearing another broken person opening up to me this morning, I am compelled to yet again change the way I look at life. Life requires me to constantly make decisions and change my strategy towards people and my daily tasks. It is imperative that I stay focused on God's plan for my life, be healthy, whole and love unconditionally. That is what this broken world needs. They don't need another judgemental conversation from a person who claims to know it all just because they went through something. They need to look into your face and tell themselves; "This is the person God sent on my path, and I feel comfortable sharing."

I want to be that person with the face that says "sent by God."  

God desires us to be well. We are not perfect, but we can be healthy. We are not trial free. We are not issue free. We are free from condemnation because our sins are no longer Ours to bare. We are free when we decide to lay all our imperfections at the feet of Jesus and listen to a hungry, needy person, who just need someone to talk to.

I decided to decide daily to be the change myself and everyone else longs to see. The work place needs you. Your church needs you. Your family needs you. The person on the street needs you,  and I believe God needs you to be rest in Him so He can work through you.
In His Love Leslene                                                                                                   

 

Giving Birth - Natural / Spiritual Relieve

Isaiah 26:17

"As a woman with child
Is in pain and cries out in her pangs,
When she draws near the time of her delivery,
So have we been in Your sight, O Lord.
We have been with child, we have been in pain;
We have, as it were, brought forth wind;
We have not accomplished any deliverance in the earth,
Nor have the inhabitants of the world fallen.

The vision, an embryo, conceived by the spirit of God Implanted in the womb of the spirit receives nourishment from the word of God, Via the umbilical cord of faith. Although there may not be outward signs
In the spirit something monumental has occurred.

There are some common signs of pregnancy before one begins to "show" Some experience digestive problems--the body begins to reject food it once loved while others experience an increased appetite, and or, an intense craving for a particular food. Not to mention the hormonal changes that causes the pendulum to swing abruptly from one emotion to another.
And what of the timing of this event-- Is it an inconvenience?
And if declared to be such, easily aborted.

If the pregnancy is allowed to continue and crosses the hurdle of miscarriage,
Soon after the first flutterings are felt and there's no doubt-
YOU'RE HAVING A BABY.
You're nine months now. Feet are swollen
You waddle here and there, you're weary, heavy and ready for this baby to come.

The first stirrings signal that labor has begun. During the night the baby has positioned himself to enter the world. The contractions begin slow and steady and increase in intensity and duration. Between contractions you try to rest and regroup awaiting the next contraction that will usher you into destiny.
You have resisted the temptation to abort the mission, because of fear and pressure and the urge to please. You have not allowed past failures to cause you to miscarry.
Now you face the greatest attack--you're so close to giving birth
Yet exhaustion from the loss of blood and pain endured(there was no epidural),
You find you're so close, but you're strength has been depleted
And the urgency you felt is diminished.

But if you listen closely, you'll hear your coach(paraclete, helper) say:
PUSH!
Your spirit will arise and say, " Your deliverance is in this baby, purpose and destiny are in this baby"
You'll be able to plant your feet firmly in the "stirrups of promise" And begin to bear down with the next contraction.
Against Frustrations and Attacks from the adversary-
PUSH!
Against Oppression and Depression-
PUSH!
I can hear the midwife say; "I see the head! A few more good pushes,
And we'll have a baby."
Against Opposition-
PUSH!
Disappointments and Tears-
PUSH!
Until at last you hold in your arms, your purpose that allows you to walk in your destiny.

Isaiah 66:7-9
Before she travailed, she brought forth; before her pains came, she was delivered of a manchild. Who hath heard such things? Who hath seen such things? Shall the earth be made to bring forth in one day? Or shall a nation be born at once? For as soon as Zion travailed, she brought forth her children. Shall I bring to the birth, and not cause to bring forth? Saith the Lord: shall I cause to bring forth, and shut the womb? Saith thy God.